accepting a whole life
This is really timely to read for me. Thank you, I resonate a lot with your thoughts here.
The sense of burden of this kind of gift & the threats it poses to you & the fact that so many ppl actively resist it. Perceive such people as dangerous. Also ignoring gut instinct in order to fit in - most of all - ideally many times I have tried to just blend in to the point of being near invisible - & it backfires more often than not.
Thank you for allowing me & all of us to read your valuable, powerful insights & experience here - reframing a burden as a portal to something special where few else can go/actively avoid - it is validating to hear, & helpful thought to consider. I really needed to shake off some pretty aggressive feelings of despair & hopelessness & the loneliness of being inside myself - as hyper connected as I feel...it can paradoxically set off a feeling of great distance from the whole wide world. So thank you Xo
This resonates so much, from the alienation and lone path of it all; to the inheritance of responsibilities not chosen (because who we are would not be able to be irresponsible anyway).
It's beyond my capacity to find the words to express all I thought and felt and gained from reading your most profound and profoundly insightful musings . . . about you, myself and others, and most especially Jason . . . and what made both you and him so extraordinary. One of my most influential teachers who is so adept at recognizing and acknowledging the gifts individuals possess, points out that every gift also contains a liability, especially if it is unused, under used or over used. So much to unpack in what you have written . . . thank you.
I hardly know what to write, other than I am grateful you have done the work and shared the insight so that I may be able to see myself more clearly. Knowing I am not alone is paradoxically comforting as someone who has always found it hard to enjoy the comfort of most social groups which inevitably come to feel like packs requiring a compromise of self.
Thank you...just for being YOU.